Tells the riveting story of the first 40 years of my life with many spiritual and psychological insights into being human. Searching for the Divine outside myself and eventually finding it within my heart and soul. From a troubled childhood, distinguished athlete and scholar under the Jesuits at Xavier College. Two trips to South Africa to visit my fathers youngest sister who was the Mother Superior for the Loreto nuns. Entering the Jesuit Novitiate, leaving and entering Newman College and Melbourne University Medical School, where I was again an exceptional athlete and Australian Rules footballer. Graduating and after one years residency at St Vincent's Hospital Melbourne, becoming a full partner in a GP Medical practice in Kyabram Victoria. My life as a GP doing absolutely every medical procedure, Medical, Surgical, Obstetric and Anaesthetics. Buy a small farm where I bred, trained and raced thoroughbred racehorses. Three trips to New Zealand with the Cups King, Bart Cummings. Three trips to Esalen Institute Big Big Sur, California.Trip to USA,UK , Ireland, Europe in a campervan with our 5 children. My 7yo daughter contracting SSPE and meeting Mother Tersa and her profound words " I HAVE NEVER SEEN THAT KIND OF LOVE" . then working with her in Calcutta. Eventually selling my share in my Medical Practice and moving to "THE WILDERNESS" Euroa.