What happens when a pious young man abandons the moral code he has lived by for twenty-five years? He has to find another one, one that has space for the fact that he's gay. It's not plain sailing. It's often three steps forward and two steps back. After many years spent in a monastery he's a bit (actually a lot!) clueless, and it takes thirteen messy years filled with screw-ups, naivety, wrong turns, false starts, cul-de-sacs, some laughs and a fair few tears, both his and others'. But he perseveres and emerges singing (metaphorically) "I am what I am" into the light of his thirty-ninth year. This is the sequel to Kevin's first memoir, A Good Boy. It's not only the story of a young gay man forging a new identity and a new way of being in the London of the 1970s and 1980s. It's a story of how we reinvent ourselves as we keep what feels most true and shed what no longer fits. You will surely see yourself here.