Searching for myself during my life has been a series of great adventures, which are forever imprinted on the walls of the canyons of my memory. I did have some very bad experiences that brought me to the very threshold of death several times. For some cosmic reason I escaped death on four occasions during my life; and I recuperated my strength and my craving for adventure after each near-death experience. I guess that those four near-death experiences were meant to remind me that I am human and vulnerable and that I should never take my life for granted. Even though I did lose some physical strength on each occasion my body and mind grew stronger and stronger; and now that I am in the winter of my life I'm alive, and I thank each day that is given to me as my mind gets closer and closer to finding that elusive me in this only life as me. As I now understand the importance and sanctity of life and my love for wonderful people, beautiful animals and plants I realize that the meaning of my very existence is to protect them while we live in this beautiful and wonderful planet. Finally, it took a lifetime for me to find God; and I have accepted that after life on earth I will be once again part of the Cosmos, which it will always belong to the Creator.