I fell in love with him from the first moment. I know, it's strange for a mother to say this.. A mother loves all her children. But I needed some time to love my children! I was gradually getting used to them, then I would accept their shapes and feel that they belonged to me.. But Ahmed, I was in love since he was born. I contemplate him all day, as if he were my first child. He was a completely white little angel. His bright whiteness was amazing, like a piece of ice in a hot country. He was breastfeeding and sleeping quietly, and he did not cry like a baby. His presence next to me made me feel serenity and tranquility. I needed this, so that I could face what was coming.