'What's the thing you'd change about your life right now if you could just click your fingers?' he asked, eyes glinting. Anika laughed. 'Wow. Not into small talk, are you?'When Anika Lapo wakes up in hospital on her thirtieth birthday, it's not dying she's afraid of: her real fear is how much of her life she has wasted. Opening her childhood diary for the first time in thirteen years, Anika writes that tomorrow's emergency surgery will save her. The next morning, after a successful operation, a hunger for life is sparked in her. Anika vows not to lose another second. Every night she writes in her diary and, the next day, her words come true. How she's going to land her dream role as a radio producer, DJ to a crowd instead of her bedroom - and that she'll finally, blissfully connect with breakfast show host Cam Seidu, the guy with the sexy smirk and jet-black eyes she's lusted after from afar... Anika finally feels like the woman she's meant to be. But what if she's trying so hard to be in control that she loses her true self? What if, after everything, she was enough all along?A devastatingly romantic, breathlessly sexy and completely unputdownable novel about what it means to truly live, and why the greatest love of our life might be ourselves.