Every Saint Has a Past, and Every Sinner Has a Future.

In rapid succession, Nicolai lost his best friend, his grandfather, and his younger cousin at an early age. With a mind too tender to process grief and his questions about life and death unanswered by the adults he counted on, the gentle boy began to change.

Teachers didn't understand his wild energy and labeled him a troublemaker, and in his adolescence, his attraction to the seedier parts of society became apparent. Nicolai was heading down a path that almost always ended in one of two ways: prison or an early death.

One night, in a dark alley in Copenhagen, Nicolai lost his eyesight in a drug-motivated chemical attack.  It only was after losing his vision that Nicolai was able to clearly see what the future held if he did not make a dramatic shift in his life. After weeks of anguish and a miraculous recovery, Nicolai embarked on an authentic journey of self-discovery. 

His travels took him to remote parts of the world-from India, to White Horse Mountain in China, to Bali, and beyond-to learn the secrets of renowned spiritual teachers like Guru Sri Sri Ravi Shankar and Master Li Sifu.

Sharing his mystical life experiences, sacred wisdom, and ancient traditions, Nicolai teaches readers from all backgrounds how to break the bonds of a painful past and experience inner freedom. 

Gangsters N' Gurus is a step-by-step guide to breaking nonconstructive patterns so you can liberate yourself from repetitive cycles of anxiety, toxic behaviors, and addiction. Nicolai applies this framework through accessible practices and exercises, perfect for anyone seeking a spiritual shift and a more profound and meaningful life.